I think i can say it now that Philbert and i have been separated for almost 2 years. How ironic that it ended on March 13 which was Friday the 13th.
I miss what I thought we had. But we never had it. So basically I am missing a lie.
Once again facing that What “could have been” could never HAVE been because what I thought WAS, wasn’t…
I feel really stupid for missing a lie … and the promise of a false future.
I miss what i thought we had. I could drive myself crazy trying to figure out what was real and what was a lie. So I’m choosing to hold on to what i know is real and that is my two beautiful children.
I know this will pass. I am not nearly as emotional about it all these days. So I KNOW it’s just a bump in the road..